how close?

Last week this woman named Donna Partow stopped by to teach two classes and in those two classes i got my behind rocked by Jesus, through her.......she is an international christian author, teacher and motivational speaker...check her out when you get the chance http://www.donnapartow.com.

But one statement she said dug deep, she said: 'The most dangerous place for a christian to be is this close

oh soooo close!

to the will of God' and it hit me like a ton of bricks!!!! This has been my favorite place to be for the past 10 years; close enough to hear Him, close enough to run back when things get bad or i need some healing, close enough that when things don't go the way i want i can find a soft place to cry and close enough that i can jump in and out but really........ not close enough to stay, stay in His will.  And then it made me thing about surrendering and how i have continuously surrendered when i could see the outcome or the amount i would need to pay for the thing that God was asking from me.........  And in that moment it became clear, i had thought myself out of the will of God numerous time, too many times to count.  I had tried and failed many times to out think God, i have tried to get Him to move this way and that with arguments and well thought out plans so that in the end i would not have to move.......... this whole time He has just stood there........ consistent in His will for my life. He has stood and cried, stood and yearned, stood and prayed that i would take one step closer to His protection, to His forgiveness, to His will, to His desires for my life.  And until Donna said it, this concept had never penetrated my being like it did in that moment..........a concept that shook my very foundation.......i have the choice everyday to walk into and out of His will for my life but until i decide to walk in and sit down, decide to walk in and rest, until i walk in and let Him do all the thinking........i will continually be ooohhhh sooo close to the desires of my heart, i will be oooohhhh sooo close to the best future for me, i will continually be ooooohhhh soooo close to His life for me if only i could just get out of the way.........so my friends i can not say that i have been totally reformed, but i can say that my footsteps on the journey before me have come into quite a bit more focus!! And with that focus i am eagerly trying every day  to choose to walk in and sit with the One who has my life gently tucked next to His heart. He hasn't failed me yet!!! :) 

I pray this speaks to u as well!!

PLEASE PRAY WITH MY GROUP AS WE FIGURE OUT DETAIL OF OUR OUTREACH!

 Soon I will be sending out info on where we will be going on outreach!! 

Much love in Christ,

siri